For my sisters:

"A woman's heart should be so lost in God, that a man needs to seek Him to find her."

Oh Lord, help me to be that woman. Help me to not jump without looking. Help me to seek You in ever choice I make.

I was listening to a song by Barlow Girl yesterday. The first verse in the song that was like a punch in the stomach:

"Oh, tragedy has taken so many
Love lost cuz they all forgot who You are
And it scares me to think, that I would choose my life over you
Oh my selfish heart, divides me from you. It tears us apart."

I have made choices over and over again that tear me apart from God. As I hook myself in closer with Him, I find it easier to resist the temptations that draw me away from Him. However, I fear that I will do it again. I probably will. I am human and weak after all. It's easier, not easy. However, I'm a bit stronger now because I've learned that I need my friends to keep me accountable. I haven't allowed that in the past. I've lived my life hiding my weaknesses, hoping no one will know. (Ha, I've also learned, I wasn't hiding a THING!) I've learned that by hiding, I simply allow myself to make bad choices.

I have learned that I can't do it alone.
I need friendships with women who are hooked into God to throw up red flags,
to give gentle reminders of truth and wisdom,
and if that doesn't work, to grab my face and turn it back toward God!

I know that all of you have tried, and I love you for it. Thank you for your unending patience and acceptance. You have been the best friends a girl could ask for. I am so blessed to have such amazing women in my life.

I hope that I can do the same for you. Ladies, it is together that we can overcome obstacles in our lives. He designed us for fellowship. He didn't ask us to do it alone. Yes, of course, we need to live out life walking with God, but we need to walk with other Christians as well. So, I'm going to work on honesty and openness with my friends. There is fear in this for me. But, I know it's worth it. :)

Love you ladies!

Kelly