And it continues

Well, the cheating continued on the weekend.  I had a few beverages while watching the game and at a birthday party.  I also had 2 slices of pizza.  It was delicious, but so not worth it.  I only lost 1lb this week.  Nope.  Not. Worth. It.


So,
I'm back on program.  I'm taking MMA 2x a week and hoping to find the funds to increase that to 3x a week.  I'm really enjoying it.

Keep me in your thoughts and prayers!

Cheater Cheater

Well...Day 18 didn't go so well

I ate a piece of pizza, some salad, and a bit of a breadstick...:(

Been kicking myself all day, but that's not going to get me back on track. So, I'm giving myself permission to forgive myself for a moment of weakness.

For what it's worth.  That pizza was GOOD!

Healthy Eating!

Day 18

I am so amazed how supportive people have been.  I've tried to lose weight a million times before each time failing because I give in to the food that comes with socializing.  This time around, people are going out of their way to help me succeed.  I don't know if it's because I've managed to make it to a "scary" weight, because I'm going through a medically supervised program, or what...but I'm very appreciative.  I hope it continues.  ;)  Thanks everyone! :)


I'm about to leave for a friends house to play cards...

There will be pizza and adult beverages.  I've made some fruit infused water and will be bringing my Optifast along...pray for a sista!

Healthy eating!

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Rewards that don't involve food...

Well, 2 weeks down.

I lost another 3.7.  Inches moved around but still 10.5" lost.
                              Not what I was hoping for...but it's a loss.

As for my goals, I completed 3/4.  I didn't go to a class on Friday, but I was home sick. I think I get a pass on that one.

This week we are supposed to set up a reward system for our goals.  They are not to be negative or punitive for not completing them.  They are to occur as close to the new behavior as possible, so they need to be inexpensive and plentiful.  I'm having some difficulty coming up with the short term rewards.  I have some of the long term in mind, but what am I gonna do every time I drink water, or workout??? I'm also wondering if I should give up the marble jar that shows me how much weight I've lost and change it to some sort of reward system.  They really don't want us to focus on the # on the scale as our motivation.  They want us to learn new behaviors that will last once we've lost the weight.

So...I've got my reward for completing the program, and for intervals throughout, but anyone have ideas for the day to day? Several times a day???  I used to reward myself with eating out and a beverage or several...ideas appreciated! :)

Week 2: Goal Setting

We were asked to write SMART goals this week.  So here are my goals:


1. This week, I will walk Lilly for 10 minutes on Tuesdays at 5, Thursdays at 5, and Saturdays first thing in the morning.

2. This week, I will drink at least 64 oz of water 7 days a week.

3. This week, I will attend MMA class on Monday from 8-9 and Wednesday from 7-8.

4. This week, on Friday, I will attend either a ZUMBA class OR OC Singles for Christ.
I think this one will be the hardest.  Going places by myself...not so comfy :)


Stats: Lost 7.3lbs and 10.5 inches over all.

Unfortunately...2" in the rack...How do you keep that from happening??? Seriously. I'm not kidding.

Weightloss Journey: Week 1

I finished week 1 of my weight loss journey on Optifast. I had a pretty good week.  I was supposed to go to a baby shower 4 days in, and I decided not to go.  I became a bit depressed thinking that I'd forever have to miss social events because I can't trust myself around food.  Thankfully, I was more upset about missing out on time with my friends than missing out on amazing Greek food, but I'd be lying if I said that didn't have a small part to play in my mood.  I comforted myself in knowing this plan is 16 weeks (if I only do one round); it's not forever.  I'll be able to eat real food again.  But, what will that be like?  How do people of a healthy weight eat every day? What do they do when they splurge? How often do they splurge? I really don't know the answers to any of these questions.   I'm ready to learn and I'm ready to change.  I need to change.  Why does food make me happy?  Why does lack of food make me sad?  These are questions I need to answer if I'm ever going to have a healthy relationship with food.  I had a rough day with hunger one day this week, but otherwise I didn't feel hungry.  Satisfied however, was a totally different story.  I wanted Parmesan Cheez-its more than I wanted air!  It was bad.  I still want them. I am not quitting though, I'm not letting this beat me this time.  I will do this.  I will be healthy.  I will feel good about myself again.